Tornado

Today I am thankful for a few friends that have provided a temporary distraction for me. From my lady friends at the high school to my sister and step-mom. I have been in somewhat of a struggle the last several months with the person I am, the way I act and the way I feel. I don't think they always match up. I am a therapist, I should have my stuff together but I think before that I am human and even worse a female. We never make sense.

Some days are a lot harder than others which is true for everyone. Stress can be overwhelming, people are overwhelming and situations can become out of control. For example, I was sitting in the Target parking lot yesterday, put my car in reverse, had not moved, a kid ran behind me. I saw them and sat there, the Mother walked up and called me an effing c*^%. Who does that? Geeze lady. It just goes to prove my point the world can be a major sucking place from time to time for everyone.

I have been doing a lot of thinking, meditating and praying. I have noticed the last couple of days right before I become overwhelmed with the nonsense of life someone steps in. Call it devine intervention, the powers that be, the god within, but I think someone is trying to tell me something. I am thankful that he is communicating with me. It has been a while.

Perhaps he has been speaking to me all along and I have failed to listen. Well you know what buddy, you have my attention.